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Yunnan 17th - 24th Dec 2006

2006-12-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

fwah! freaking long trip there. freaking breath-taking scenery.

But i rushing off to Seattle. Will post pictures when i back on 1st.

Haha those who have my friendster can see a few pics.

Meanwhile, the rest of you can have a sneak preview..

This is what I call the real OSIM iGallop; Made in Shangri-La.

Exams

2006-11-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

Exams are round the corner.. tts y no posts. Ok fine tt sounds unconvincing.

Lazy la. December i redo the design for this blog first then blog more. Meet more pple and take more photos first then blog. Interesting things happen then blog.

anyway, since my boss so nice post comment here, i shall post her picture here. hmm but i realised i only have 1 photo of her. and tts quite ancient at my 21st a year + ago. better than nothing haha.

Top: Me

Left to right: Dawn(boss), kaizhen, wanyi, shimin

Havent seen you gals in eons hah

Gd luck to all my friends having exams soon. Most imptly, gd luck to me!

I know..

2006-10-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

I know that I made the right decision finally.. To know that you're enjoying your life right now is what I really wanted. Haha sound wei da right? Of course I am. I really wanted to try once more. But knowing trying again will only prolong our suffering, why should I? I'm happy leading my carefree lifestyle too. This is the best ending. =)

Damm. having diarrhoea since morning and feeling nauseous for almost a wk. may i recover soon.

I need $

2006-10-22T11:22:00.000+08:00

wah money really hard to save. too bz with sch will make you rich. no time for meals. i could have been a rich man actually. but i rekindled an old hobby - shopping for clothes.

cardigan from topman

bought this along with another black vest at topman. there goes my savings for the month.

Not meant to be

2006-10-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

Somethings arent meant to be. But I seem to try even when it seems impossible.

My philosophy in life is to try else die and regret not trying.

I went to Mariott Hotel on Saturday evening after my 2 papers and a project meeting in search of the ice cream mooncake. The receptionist told me they stopped selling yesterday since mooncake fest ended yesterday. An answer I already knew when I decided to try. Its impossible. It wasnt meant to be from the beginning.

I wanted to buy laksa or mee siam on Sunday evening, but suddenly felt unwell. Head spinning whole evening. Couldnt drive. Cant deliver. Couldnt even try. Haha. Just not meant to be.

Hence, I decided just to sms.

Some things are beyond our control. Some things are within. Anything within my means I will try. But results are determined not by effort and not by us.

Bon voyage!

(From my project: Business Morning)

XY

2006-10-05T02:56:00.000+08:00

Get over it. You can do it.

Pride and Prejudice

2006-10-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

It was eons since I last posted. I actually decided to close down this blog. But lazy. This blog has lost its original purpose. But I realised some friends do come once in a blue moon to take a look. So touched. So type a little something for those of you who waste precious free time to find out how i'm doing.

It seems that my previous post was prophetic. Or maybe because its so general it applies to almost everyone and every relationship. Relationships teach you alot. They teach you that Love has a close relation with Food actually. In the beginning, they show you that Love can take the place of Food. In the middle, they show you that Food can enrich Love. In the end, they show you that no Food in the world can replace Love. Hey i'm not sprouting rubbish. Must read between the lines and connect with your own experience. Maybe applies only to gluttons like me.

Anyway back to my topic.

Pride and Prejudice goes hand in hand.

Pride is double-edged. But I choose to focus on the bad. Having too much pride makes others seem inferior to you. Makes you criticise. Makes you see every action of others as negative. Makes you maintain your own beliefs even though some are wrong. Makes you justify your every action good or bad. Makes you love yourself more than loving others. Makes others who care about you feel miserable caring.

Prejudice is bad. When you have prejudice against someone, it clouds your judgement. Everything the person does or says is negative. Everything bad others speak of him/her is music to your ears.

Sian need to go for class already. Half-hearted post.

Leave you with something to think about:
Friends are the best gifts in life. Love is a bonus. But friends can betray you. Love can turn into hate.

Still, I love my friends. Thanks for being there for me even when i failed to be there at times. Will improve on it.

Btw.. Some people tell me this is a nice picture of me. Haha.

What is love?

2006-04-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

I believe love has 3 stages.

Stage 1

Love means having your adrenline pumping when your infactuation walks by; Feeling you're the luckiest in the world to see him/her; Dreaming about what it is like to be holding hands or hugging him/her; Hoping that him/her feels the same about you;Everything good and bad about him/her is good.

Stage 2

Love is when you are together with the person you have been dreaming about in stage 1; Her leaning on your shoulder or you leaning on his shoulder as you both watch the stars at the beach; Whispering to each other sweet nothings; Telling each other how wonderful it is to have each other in your arms; Looking at each other knowing he/she is the one you'd spend your life with.

Stage 3

Love is when he/she is tired of the relationship, but you'd still love him/her and doesnt want it to end; You'd still do anything for him/her even when him/her appreciates it less than before; You'd only walk away when there is no more love left in him/her for you; You'd rather be sad and leave him/her; You'd be happy seeing him/her being happy in someone else's arms.

People say you cant marry the person you love.

I say you can only love the person you marry.

Spate of Bad luck

2006-04-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

Recently been on the down.. Should have hitted rock bottom by now..

Had an accident 2 wks ago in school.. Wanted to blog about it but was busy with assignments and projects.. Hitted a year 4's Toyota as I was coming out from the parking lot. Was blocked by a huge trailer parked to my right.. But i came out slowly and even had my headlamps on.. This guy appeared out of nowhere and the next thing i knew i crashed into his left side. I badly scratched his left front door and badly dented his rear left door.. The dent was so far in that part of the chasis was damaged.. My dad was furious but he paid 2k in damages for me.. Hai this hols need to repay debt.. Luckily only my car plate was badly damaged.

Civic is strong. Toyota sux.

PS: Blurred the license plate to prevent you people from succumbing to gambling at the nearest 4D outlet. (And to protect my identity and my dad's car from Toyota drivers' abuse) =

Angel and the gal

2006-03-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

Was driving to school on monday when i heard DJ Lingzhi tokking abt a story. Been listening to FM933 rather than Power98 or FM98.7 recently. Must learn to sing more chinese songs so ktv wont malu. This story is very predictable, but the meaning behind it is a much neglected one. Anyway, the story goes.. (PS: its in mandarin. i'm trying my best to get it across as accurate as possible translated.)

The Story

Long ago, there was an angel. He fell in love with a gal. He started visiting this gal often. The 2 of them had alot of fun together. But the angel always had to leave after a spending a period of time with the gal, as he had to visit many people. So each time the gal waited patiently for the angel to return. The gal had no complains as she also fell in love with the angel.

Finally, one day, the angel decided to give up every other people he needed to visit to solely spend his time with this gal. He did not want the gal to wait for him each time. So the 2 of them spent many days basked in each others' love. The angel told the gal, 'So long you love me, I will always love you. Once you stopped loving me, I will fly away and never visit you again.'

However, as the days passed, the gal began to worry. She thought to herself, 'What if angel had to leave? He still needs to visit other people. Its his job.. When he leaves, what do I do? I cant live a day without him..' Hence, the gal decided to do something about that.

One night, as the angel was sleeping, the gal cut away his wings and hid them. She did not want him to ever fly away. This way, the angel will be hers solely. When the angel awoke, he was furious.

'Give me back my wings! How could you be so selfish?'

The angel searched high and low for his wings and eventually managed to find them. With his magic, he reattached his wings. He told the gal, 'You are too selfish. You have stopped loving me. I will leave you now.'

With that, the angel flew away and never came back for a few weeks. The gal was heartbroken. She only wanted to keep the angel for herself. She did not stop loving the angel. She started crying each night. One night, she looked into the stars at night and spoke, 'Angel.. Where are you? Come back to me will you? I still love you as much as before. I promise not to cut your wings ever again. I will not take your freedom away from you anymore.'

Immediately, the angel appeared and said, 'Silly gal, I still love you. I have been watching you since I left. I could not stay with you if you take away my freedom. I will always love you so long you love me.' The angel stayed and lived happily ever after with the gal.

The End

DJ Lingzhi then explained the moral of the story to the listeners. She said that for many of us, love has turned into a possession. Then she said in mandarin, 'Ai shi yong you, bu shi zhan you'. Ahem.. i'm unable to translate properly. But the closest i could come up with is 'Love is to have, not to possess.'

Anyway, this kind of stories are for maturing adolescents. But it is still useful for young adults or even working adults. Because in love, not many of us can learn to break out of possessive love. Many of us use the wrong methods of love. Some of us might take a lifetime to break out of it. Some of us might take only a while to realise it but at the cost of numerous breakups. Love should be full of trust and compromises. The angel spent most of his time with the gal. But the gal wanted more and cut his wings.

Damm, made my trip to school so moody. Sch so sian already.

No new posts

2006-03-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

No mood to blog. Blogging takes up time. You need to take photos, upload to the computer, then upload to the blog. Then you need to brainstorm and think of what to blog. You need to correct your grammar and spelling before you upload it. Its not easy to rattle off when my english is poor. Then you need to find a time when you have the mood to blog. And my mid-term is in 4 days time.

Damm my Motorala V3 which has problems uploading pics to the com. Now my phone running out of space storing those old photos. Then there is the Internet connection thing with reutors and modems never fails to hang at least once.

Blogging requires great skill and luck. You might encounter many barriers to blogging.

If you decide on blogging on some incident in the news. There is so many shocking news each day lately. Reading the news takes up time. Read already develop opinions and thoughts require time too. After forming your views and having made the decision to blog, you need to repeat the stories you read online. In the end, you spend twice the amount of time on a particular issue compared to normally when you just read w/o blogging.

Then you might decide to blog on your mood at the very moment. You might feel down or happy. Then you need to discover the reason why. After discovering the reason you need to type it all out. Then you might suddenly change mood again. You go through everything twice again. Waste time.

Or you might suddenly get interrupted when blogging. You're asked to do something, run errand, or answer a phone call. Friends ask you out, Gf quarrel, people call wrong number, mother forgot why she call, blahblah. Then you get distracted and forgot what to blog.

Then you suddenly realised you spent almost 30 mins to post a new bo liao entry. Wah die. Havent studied. Wth wasted time blogging.

S.N.A.G

2006-01-31T00:38:00.000+08:00

Gong Si Fa Chai!

Been very long since i blogged. Told ya no habit of blogging. Very lazy also. Some pple think i'm gay to blog. That brings me to the topic.

Silly New Age Guys

Gals make them look silly.

There are nice guys around actually. But nice guys are only fated to be bullied and trampled upon. Esp by Girlfriends from Hell. (Ya i know its CNY but..) My dear friend is a nice guy. He shall not be named. He shall be called Lemon. Lemon's gf expects him to do everything for her. She expects him to be at his bidding. She expects him to ferry her place to place and be contactable at all times. She expects him to pay for everything. She expects him to make her happy. Basically she expects him to do everything she wants.

Lemon did everything. He ferried her everywhere. He paid for everything. He spent all his free time with gf and never had time for himself. They were happy. But its tiring. Lemon's gf was never satisfied. Presents and actions were not appreciated. They had quarrels. In the end, the gf gives ultimatum. Asks Lemon to do something to salvage everything. But cant the gal see that he has been doing everything asked of him? Cant the gal see that its her who should be doing something?

To be fair, maybe Lemon lost his temper easily. Maybe Lemon said things that hurt her. But the biggest mistake is that Lemon is a nice guy. He is too accomodating. Gf gets spoilt and demands more. Pressure piled up on Lemon and more quarrels erupt.

Gals like bad guys. A relationship is bound to head for disaster when one party loves the other more. Everything must have a balance. Nature is made this way. Both parties must do their part. A relationship is often a see-saw. It must go up and down. If only 1 person sits on the see-saw, there is no way the game will be able to commence.

Lemon trust me. Some gal will appreciate you better.

CORS bidding system

2006-01-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

This post is mainly for readers from NUS who understands how it works.

I'm lazy to explain.

IT SUCKS.

Senior students have more bidding points than you.

How to get the modules when senior students usually out-bid you?

How to do well when you cant get the module you are interested in? Doing those modules you have no interest definitely affects your grade.

Eg. You cant get the module you wanted. You can only settle for a History module. You are not history trained so you need to learn how to write an A essay in 3 months. Compare it to students who have been trained since secondary 3. You were 15 years old. Now either 21 (males) or 19 (females). So thats 6 or 4 years behind time. By calculation, you should hope for a grade C.

These few days I have been bidding.

Today i tried bidding for a module i'm required to do.

Total Vacancy : 2 Total Bidders: 6

Next Min Bid: 3962

...... My maximum points available for bidding only 1200.

In the army they would say 'suck thumb'.

Hmm I took down the Japan Post to finish it up. Too many pictures.. Give me some time. Ok back to my bidding. Need to monitor it till 3pm.

My dearest happiest moments (Part 1)

2005-12-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

Life is about being happy..

Its too short to be pissed over people or stuff..

Its too short not to pursue your goals..

For me, seeing you happy is one of the fulfillments in my life.

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I had a surprise for my darling on her 21st. Its difficult to describe the surprise to you people unless i can upload the video clip here. But anyway, thats too embarrassing and i'm too shy!

Okok brief outline:

Wore a jacket to her 21st birthday party.
Had my friend Imran to bring the bouquet of flowers up to her place
Surprised her after she finished cutting cake
Imran brought along his violin which I persuaded him to help me play for her
Imran played his version of Happy Birthday song for her
I took over and played Tong Hua for her (which had alot of mistakes!)
During which I took off my jacket to reveal my secret T-shirt
Which had messages for her
And Imran took over the violin for a last song

My darling had her buffet dinner at her house on 22nd Oct 2005

She looked so lovely smiling...

I din really smile cause I was nervous awaiting the surprise I had for her

Below are the pictures of the legendary bouquet that melted her...

She loved seeing me play the violin. (But thats not me above)

I couldnt do it very well so asked a favour from my old time gay-mate, Imran. hahaha.

You can see the simple secret message below. (phew damm warm wearing jacket)

Thats Us after a job well done. My darling loves it.

(people used to say we look like twins when we were in pri sch. ehh maybe not so much now)

Hope it was a memorable evening for you.

Capital Punishment

2005-12-03T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hello people I'm back. I finished exams.. and true enough.. I'm finished.
Anyway everyone says the same thing. Hopefully I still do well enough. Haha so lets get to my topic.

Capital Punishment: The penalty of death for the commission of a crime. (www.dictionary.com)

Some of you might know which incident I'm gonna refer to.. The hanging of Nguyen Tuong Van.
Ok i'm gonna be selective with my words cause so many people kenna for being too expressive in blogs.. make me scared.

Ok short intro; Singapore hanged Australian Nguyen Tuong Van for drug trafficking. Aust govt pleaded for him to be excused from hanging. After being hanged, Aust govt complained that hanging is barbaric.

Hmm barbaric? Stats show that Aust only abolished capital punishment in 1985.

Wow. Ok since i'm Singaporean, you know my opinion will be a little biased already.

From statistics, 15 countries abolished Capital Punishment with Australia as the last country to do that in 1985. Further stats show that the abolishment of capital punishment saw a slight increase in murder/manslaughter from 5 yrs before till 5 yrs after. So stats show that the abolishment in capital punishment might suggest that offenders have less deterrent to commit major crimes.

Singapore PM said that Singapore is very strict on drug trafficking and offenders must be hanged. Lucky our neighbour Malaysia also defended that hanging is not barbaric.

So what i'm trying to say is that Singapore is relatively a safe place because of its tough enforcement of its strict laws. True that Aust govt must appeal for its citizens (which country would not) but to call the act barbaric would be too harsh.

In the first place, the offender should have checked the laws of the foreign country before committing a crime. And in the first first place, we should not be committing crimes.

Ok enough of this topic. Had a long exam period. Very jaded and tired. Fell very ill during last few days. Couldnt breathe properly and had severe headache. Went X ray and everything doctors say nothing wrong. First time felt such symptoms. Chest better but head havent recover. Hopefully the hols will cure me. Hahaha.

Will be changing the layout soon. Keep reading!

Sometimes you wonder..

2005-11-25T12:11:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you wonder

What is it you are after?

It was very clear

All you ever wanted was laughter

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Sometimes you ponder

Why do you have to suffer?

You are haunted by fear

That you might say goodbye all over

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Sometimes you concur

Your patience might not last longer

Every night you hide your tears

Hoping no one hears

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When the world withers away

When hope decides to stray

When pain finds a way to stay

Dont weep, she's all you need.

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The most unbelievable thing I ever did.

2005-11-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

I hated blogs in the past. Blogging never came across my mind. I thought bloggers have nothing better to do.

But that was in the past. Hahaha.

So many blogging incidents recently. Everyone is having fun and some are even enjoying the limelight for either the right or wrong reasons! So here I am to join in the fun.

Hah but i'm a noob when it comes to computing stuff. So I'll take long. And most importantly, I'm having my exams till Dec1. So be patient. Check back here and show your support by 1st week of December 2005! I promise to make this space a nicer place.

PS: Btw, senor means Mr in Spanish.